Taming the Shrew

I'm learning to tame my mind and my mouth. LOL. I have a tendency to want to speak a lot with others at work, but now I'm learning to curtail how much I say. When I began volunteering, I thought very often about mom and thinking of her made me sad. I was a little disturbed by the happiness of others similar to how I behaved at TRIO Upward Bound. Now I am better in both places. I'm glad that I learned to allay my hostility towards others' happiness. I think that I will apply to work with AmeriCorps. I don't know what I will do in August, whether go to the Republic of Georgia or stay in the U.S. I feel less torn than I have felt in the past two months. I see how staying home will be good for the family and for me. I need to feel that I am part of a community. I've been denying myself of that and that's why I keep on rejecting Georgia, even though I can definitely make a life here. I'm afraid of commitment and becoming established. I'm slowly learning to accept being settled and happy here, which does make me happier. I have an opportunity to work with EF Atlanta by teaching English to foreign students who come to learn in metro Atlanta. Perhaps I shall be accepted and maybe I will work with them for a year or longer. I may reduce my travel ambitions to short visits in other countries. Well, let me not decide my future too soon. I may yet surprise myself and do some incredible things that I didn't expect. May God help me with it all. Amen.

Two months in

I've been volunteering at Habitat for two months now. I enjoy adding details to the digital photos. I recognize that I'm doing cataloging work. I just laughed to myself, because I remember that I was doing similar work at Georgia State University's Archives and Special Collections. There I was an intern doing a course for my Master of Library and Information Science degree. My project was organizing the Welch collection. The collection contained many images such as prints, transparencies, and slides. I loved seeing the places that Ernest G. Welch had gone. I just remembered how similar what I'm doing now at Habitat is to that experience at GSU. LOL, then I thought, well what did I do after that internship? I went to Martinique four months later. I'm still a bit ambiguous about whether I should stay in Georgia and work full time or continue my life ambition and teach English abroad. If I do go abroad, then the Republic of Georgia will be my next destination. I'm learning how I can make a life for myself in Georgia, but travel still calls me. I don't know about taking my mom with me abroad. But if I get her Honduran passport renewed, then she could come with me, but to a country where I could earn more money. The Republic of Georgia cannot pay much at this time to its volunteer English teachers. I'm not sure of what the future will bring, but I still want to dare to dream and not submit to fear. AMEN.